oh joy
my grandma threw away all my neo prints.
i. can't. even. begin. to. describe. how. irritated. i. am.
and the worst thing is that i can't even be angry,
omg i hate moodswings can i just kill myself now.

8:24 PM
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heavy heart
i feel like slapping myself URGHHH.
okay just let me wallow in self-pity for a while and hopefully i can get over this in by friday.

oh great its 11.11 now.
and i have (11) updates on my tumblr dashboard. what a coincidence.

normally at this time i'd be anticipating a new ep of rooftop prince being released tomorrow but the show ended ):

i think i'm gonna watch liar game.i have to take a break from kdramas for a while until i get over RTP ):

oh and i just started reading one piece manga today. its very interesting and funny. hahaha. and theres like 600+ chapters so i can just read and read and read.

okay for now i'm gonna go stare at my picture of daehyun which i can't even hang on my fridge anymore now that my mum and aunt are back from genting. 

11:08 PM
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i guess this is the closest i'll get to hearing them perform this song. i finally understood why they didn't promote this. jongup don't even have any lines! omg so poor thing. he was just standing there waving awkwardly throughout the whole song and like he was standing in between the 2 main vocals and all...
but still cute. hahaha he is so dorky seriously.

can't wait for the english subs to come out for their appearance on this radioshow~

12:21 PM
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oh gordy i'm so nervous
D:

got my first tuition pay today! yayy.
went to bugis street after tuition as i wanted to buy shoes and a bag for tomorrow but...
i bought a dress and a tank top and food and a door stopper
but no shoes and bag.
and i forgot to buy what i needed to buy too, like socks, plasters and screen protector. haizz.

went to meet sop for lunch after that.
we had lunch at this indian coffee shop where we shared their "curry fish set" which consists of rice, fish curry, 2 of that biscuit like thing, 3 type of veg, a small bowl of another kind of curry and a small bowl of some spicy soup-like thing that neither of us tried. i think it was pretty worth it cause we were both so full after lunch.
the cool thing was, we had to eat with our hands. i don't think i can date an indian man. he'll run AFAP away after seeing how clumsy i am at eating with my hands. hahahaha.

so after that sop went back to work and i went home.
what a tiring day. having to wake up early even though i worked night shift yesterday, walking to my tutee's house from bugis then walking back bugis then walk around bugis and then from bugis walk to somewhere near little india again to meet sop for lunch and then walking back. i like to walk but... not this much in this weather.
i don't know why i bothered to wake up earlier to shower before leaving my house. -.-

But i guess what really tired me out was trying to restarin myself from buying anything. T-T
last week i wore the beast socks that a colleague bought for me when she went to korea to work.
while i was going to take a picture, emily went to step on 2 of their faces. OMG NOOO. this is unforgivable.

i hope my tutee have fun in jakarta.
and congrats mabel~
hahahaha IT'S FATE that you'll get it :D

6:11 PM
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happy birthday mabel and chen ting 2012!
woke up really early today to go give tuition and my tutee's house is seriously far from the nearest mrt station. okay never mind, i like walking.
i think i left my house too early cause i reached there like 15 minutes early so i sat at the void deck there until its time. or should i have just gone up even though i'm early?
and i realised that i have difficulty getting my ideas across to people.

anyways, after tuition, i had quite a lot of time before meeting mabel so i walked around at bugis for a bit, took the train all the way to pasir ris then from pasir ris take back to bedok again. hahaha.

so today we sort of celebrated our birthdays together!~
hahaha mabel the first friend i made in JC and the only OG mate i still keep in touch with.
hearts for you! ♥♥♥
we ate, cycled, exchange presents (i really like the unique earrings but i still don't get why parrots reminds you of me...)(and use the mask and tell me how it is!!) , cycled somemore, talked about our futures and other random stuff.
we didn't get to see the sunset today cause of the weather but there was this peculiar cloud right in front of us that looked like a popcorn.

hahaha. it was cool to see mabel's house which has a huge kitchen and to interact with silky.
it took quite a while and a doggy treat for her dog to warm up to me but the doggy is still cute :D

well today was very fun but very tiring.
my butt hurts from cycling and my legs ache from the cycling and walking. i'm really getting old.

haha mabel, guess what, i didn't do anything that i'd planned to do when i got home. i just fb-ed and tumblr-ed and now i'm here.hahaha.
 
oh great, and its 1.39 am now. so much for sleeping at 12.30. hahaha.
and lyn, you're back from malaysia? or are you there now... hmm. hahaha.

man, i'm getting a bit nervous for the interview on wednesday.
its my one chance!
but then again,
EVERYTHING HAS ALREADY BEEN PLANNED OUT FOR US.
(gets into zen mode now)



1:39 AM
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haha platoonmates, if you are reading part blog archives like i am now, go to july 2007! hahaha that is like the most eventful month right, all those long long long posts about how emo we were cause papa mama they all stepped down. hahahaha. AND P ACTUALLY POSTED ON PART BLOG. omg just give us back our money!!

i see why sop ended up as the sergeant major. hahaha.

and kan chih-yin is forever trying to blind us with yellow font.

"sopy says:
er, not really, just a hunch
sopy says:
oh ya, tell your part, UBBEYLY good luck for orienteering and shooting
sopy says:
oh ya, how did the rest chose?
KELLY says:
yes senior
KELLY says:
thank you senior
KELLY says:
not very sure senior
KELLY says:
but i think there are some aiming for triple senior
"

HAHAHA. i can still remember the days where we ended every sentence with staff/sergeant/senior.

7:34 PM
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its already thursday NIGHT and theres still no rooftop prince ep 19.
no. this is not happening to me D:

7:17 PM
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okay i've added the archives, pals!!
HAHAHAHA. its damn funny.
i'm gonna come back and read through them all after my tuition.

here's a "preview"
"sing to the tune of fergalicious(the alpha 2 part must be faster!)
***alpha2licious definition makes the specs go loco
they want our standards to be high so we can get a promo
we can smile fast, we can frown.
might be faster then we smile.
we are here for a reason
camps don't come and go like seasons, alpha2licious***
so cool right!!!
i was singing singing then i thought of it:D.

ct the chio gal"

HAHAHA omg "ct the chio gal".
"GAL". HAHAHAHAHA omg. hahahahahahaha. this is damn funny. hahahahaha.

12:53 PM
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after don't know how many years, i finally signed in to my blogskins account and i realised that the total downloads for my blogskins hit and went over 4000. omg pals, i've made it big (':

HAHAHA just kiddinggg. some blogskins have more than the total downloads of my 11 blogskins. hahaha.
this almost make me feel like making blogskins again. ALMOST. haha but nahhh. i'm a lazy ass.

12:37 PM
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hello pals, i've made the part blog visible to anybody. so i hope it'll stop being so dead from now on. hahaha. and not like any cadets are gonna stalk us now right. kay kay let me try to go add archive to the blog.

12:24 PM
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i love being able to upload GIFs on my blog. heheheh :D

 i spent such a long time playing on google.com today before i realised what i was supposed to do. hahaha.

i don't really like JJ project's songs except for the one which"doesn't sound so autotuned".
JB and JR are so very very cute. hahahaha.

went to collect my new ipod today!
it good that i got a new one which has functioning buttons and everything...
but i still miss my old one, where everything was already set to my liking and where i have all my pictures inside. :/
all my kids ):

okay i'm gonna name my new ipod "baby" so that like i can say "oh i'm bringing my baby out today."
#losernumber1thanks.
hahahahaha.

and tomorrow onwards i'm gonna embark on a new project.
its called the "Let Chen Ting Sleep Early" project, also known as LCTSE.
i hope that through this project, i would be able to reduce my eye bags and dark circles and clear my mind a bit. i have decided that i'm not gonna allow myself to look like crap at this period where its supposedly the "prime of my youth". now that i'm 19, only 6 years left that i'll still be considered a youth. after that kids are going to start calling me aunty and saying that i'm an old hag and everything )':

oh ya, and i've been thinking, i'm getting a bit old for all these fan-girling stuff.
next year onwards, i'll no longer be a teen and its ridiculous if i'm still fan-girling to the extent like what i'm doing now. i'm too old to be fighting with the other teeny boppers. plus, the idols are getting younger and younger. so much so that i feel embarassed to be considering them as "oppas". omg no. yucks whats wrong with me. 况且,这些都太不切实际了.

so this year would be my last year as a crazy fan-girl. hahaha.
(but who knows, with my kind of hua-chi character, it might be hard to stop.) 

oh ya and i like gna's new song but the dance is kinda...
mm okay. unsuitable for kids. hahahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY OUT OF THE WORLD FRIEND! ♥
see youuuu on saturdayyy~

11:36 PM
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wow the english version is actually not bad. and thankfully they didn't make junhyung try to rap in english.

11:47 PM
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dear ipod,
i'm officially missing you ):

11:11 PM
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can't wash that greasy smell out of my hair
today triumphs over all the good days i've ever had in my life. ever.
hehehehe ^^

let's look at this graph i made! hahaha.

1) my right ear unblocked itself hahaha.
2) when i realised that i was going to be really late so i have to rush and turns out that jovina is even later and we ended with with only like 25 minutes to eat together.
3) talking to jovina while we ate lunch together. so long never see her! :D
4) when i had this long period of time by myself while i was waiting for sop then i started thinking how mama could never see me grow anymore and that i only got to celebrate my birthday with her for 18 years.
4 to 5) the "mission" in art friend, hopping into the cab with sop in it and realising that we're going to a neoraebang! hahahaha.
5) when kelly, ys and lyn burst through the door of our room and scared the crap out of me. hahaha.
6) going crazy singing and dancing but with intervals of feeling tired.
7) the period where we're traveling from the karaoke place to the mrt station and eating lyn's cheesecake. and then me trying to find out where we're going next with my very investigator-like techniques but failed. then talking on the bus with kelly, sop and ys. yes indeed, i shouldn't think so much. ^^
i'm glad that i can still talk to you all about my problems. hahaha. 
8) when they blindfolded me with lyn's heavy hoodie and led me to the korean restaurant where we're gonna have dinner. i looked like a monster with a hoodie wrapped around my face. hahaha at least i couldn't see all the stares. i think they had a lot more fun than me during this part. esp that kelly who kept saying "got step!" when there really isn't any steps.
9) eating the very sumptious dinner :D i finally got to try what i've wanted to do for a really long time! watching all those korean dramas made me want to try doing: -clinking the tiny glass together -gulping down in one shot -going "ssssssss" "AAAAAaaahhhh....", the whole soju drinking process! hahahaha. soju tastes quite gross. like antibiotics but much stronger. but it leaves a warm feeling in the stomach after that. very interesting. hahahaha. and its really interesting to see how part of delta acts when they're kinda tipsy. hahaha. it was too bad ajay couldn't join us. i bet she'll make the most noise. hahahaha.
10) this is the part after we finished our dinner and kelly,jy and ajay went home already.
it like having moodswings but much faster and more intense. we walked from tanjong pagar to clark quay being really high.
there was this part where we just started singing "hands up" really loudly and creating a ruckus. this "high-ness" is pretty addictive. dangerous.
then like the next minute i'll feel so tired and sian and grumpy and a few minutes after that will start laughing at nothing again.  very very scary indeed.
11) i treated them to ice cream and a cup of frappe and we had ice cream and frappe and cheese cake and plain water.
 so after these we kinda sobered up and therefore returned to a pretty neutral state. we ended up heading home at around 11 plus?

the bus ride home with ys was quite interesting as we talked about primary school stuff. i still can't believe that she knew about that rumor. hahahaha. turns out i was quite high profile back then. hahaha kidding kidding.
many many MANY thanks to delta for this wonderful day :D
i'm so sorry that you all have to spend so much today, i'll treat you all something someday! hahaha.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
i hope everyone had fun today too ^^
and thank you for all the birthday wishes :D

hahaha its like 3.17 am now and i'm not sleepy. i think if i can stay awake for another 2 hours i'll be able to talk to cy. HAHA, that early bird.

kk i'm going to sleep.nites morning everybody~

3:15 AM
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and honestly i'm pretty scared for later.
okay gonna sleep now.

2:08 AM
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*DIED*

2:07 AM
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Birthday Party at Kids Club!
so today the kids club people had a birthday party for Dannial and I (his birthday is one day after mine).
i set my alarm clock so that i would wake up at 11 but i think i pressed stop instead of snooze so i ended up waking up at 1 plus. i was so shocked at the time when i woke up cause i'm supposed to reach kids club at 2.30pm. hahaha.

i thought there was only going to be cake cutting and photo taking but they actually prepared presents too!
we each got a soft toy from build-a-bear. just look at how happy Dannial is with his cow soft toy.
my bunny is named "mybeast" while his cow was named... "milkme". i always knew kids club people are sick in the mind. (myself not included. hahaha.)

and Dannial actually prepared a present for me too and i felt super bad cause i didn't prepare anything for him. not even a card. sorry i'm so self-centered, i'll get him something nice i promise!
he got me this cool soft toy cum blanket thing plus a giant tupperware full of gummy worms and a flower (which my grandma had fun fooling around with when i came home).

hahaha and it also came with this really sweet card. i feel so can kui now T-T
i swear i'll treat him better next time T-T
oh you know whats the worst part? while taking photos he kept making fun of me so i wanted to punch him lightly on the arm but i accidentally punched his face instead. hahahahaha omg. hahahaha. i'm so mean. hahahahahahaha.

but they really keep making fun of me okay!! i'm gonna post the evidence. 
 
hello do you all see how bad they are to me! D:<
and keep pushing Dannial and I together -.-

hahaha. let me show you the people that i'm closer to at work. 

weiting!! hahaha i love weiting. she's so awesome. she always makes me laugh and i can talk to her about anything (esp kpop). look, she even gives me piggyback rides. that just shows how awesome she is. hahaha.
ross and emily!
Ross is like our mother at kids club ^^
always so happy to see everyone.
emily is one of the first friends i made at kids club, fellow 93-line and i love how straightforward she is.
 then theres mellissa, with whom i can also talk kpop about. (mellissa, weiting and i are the culprits that led to why corinne (this 4 year old) is singing and dancing along to fantastic baby).
do not be fooled by this photo, she is actually really small size.
yep, so today is a really happy day.
i even got to watch B.A.P on the big tv screen cause i chionged to my grandma's house after the party to watch music bank. hahahaha.
i really didn't expect this much from them since we're only casuals plus i'm still quite new at kids club.
i'm really going to miss this kids club family when the time comes that i have to leave ):
 

1:52 AM
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my life right now
i feel that i'm standing at this crossroad right now where i suddenly realise that what i want and what i would get might just not be the same.

if i don't go after what i really want, my future would look something like this:
me in a stable but boring job, married to a good and nice person who doesn't make my heart go pitter-patter. generally satisfied with my life (because having all that, i am much much more fortunate than so many people on earth so i must be grateful for that) but maybe, occasionally, sometimes, randomly, a "what if" would pop into my head which i would eventually sweep away with a "i should be thankful for how fortunate i am now".
.
.
.
ya.

so while i still can, what am i gonna do about it? 

i am terrified of the day when i realise that i'm stuck in a life that i don't want to be in but its too late to do anything about it so i just have to suck it up until i die. that, is probably one of my biggest fears.

12:42 AM
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la music la vie


the concert was really worth it. good job SACO!!
impressive job done, Mr Tan, turning the impossible into reality.
i can still remember laughing and going "siao, cannot one lah!" when they talked about having the concert in SCH and having dance and singing during the concert. it all turned out really well though.
it was also quite fun trying to sell the programme booklets with Contractor Ho. hahaha :D

oh there was this terrifying moment when my heel caught onto the carpet while i was coming down the stairs and i reached the end of the stairs at top speed. hahahahaha. it was damn embarassing i swear but i managed to quickly regain my balance and wear back my shoes before rushing out of the hall. hahahaha.
must be karma for laughing at contractor ho about her last year's "programme booklet incident" everytime someone stopped themselves from buying the programme booklet when they hear that it costs $2. hahaha.

finally got to wear this dress that i bought at a flea market for like $5.
but i'm gonna have to banish it to my "skinny clothes" pile. clothes that i can only wear when i feel skinny enough. this dress really shows off my tummy fats.
and i'm also banish that pair of heels (my sec 4 prom shoes) to the shoerack outside my house cause it nearly cost me my life plus it gave me blisters which i am still suffering from everytime i accidentally hit something with my toe. 
you can steal it for all you want, stupid shoe thief who took my converse last time! i hope you trip while walking in the stolen shoes ):<
it was my first pair of converse you idiot! ):<

okay whatever. hahaha i'm going to sleep already. nites~

1:29 AM
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Lynny's birthday surprise!~
 look how well ajay and kellys' bottoms are matching with the grass around us.

 our kiddy kite ^^

 look at the happy kid ^^





 pretty lyn in her pretty bridal-gown-like dress (:
 ajay with our kite (:
 nice background!
 kelly giving us a scary look.
lyn's birthday surprise was very successful cause she did get surprised :D
the card was awesome and so was the food.
(too bad we didn't have any drinks *clears throat* )
(thank you ajay, kelly and jiayue for waking up early to make the food and thank you ajay for making the very very nice card!)
(hahaha talking as though its my birthday) 
took a lot of nice photos and had a lot of fun laughing. ^^

we then had dinner at this steamboat place where sop then joined us.
the steamboat was delicious, we were tired from being in the sun all day but still a bit high. hahaha (was it just me... )

then  we went to the staircase place to sit and talked for a while and take some photos before going our own ways.

bought gongcha at raffles link then took bus with sop to harbourfront.
i then went to RWS to join my family as they booked 2 rooms at hotel michael.
showered and then listened to my cousin play her guitar while i played scramble.
then i forced her to listen to all the daehyun parts in all the BAP songs while i was spazzing over how awesome his voice sounds and how he and i are the same age. hahahaha.

1:01 AM
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surprise surprise!
to cut the long story short, i was truly surprised when i realised that jiayue is holding a cake with a lighted candle as she came down the escalator. i totally didn't expect her to be so nice since i didn't do anything personal for her during her birthday. mega touched (':

yes jiayue, you're very awesome and you'll be a great gf (if you be a little less mean to your LT). ^^

we then had lunch at foodcourt then went to sentosa where we walked around in the hot hot HOT sun, took pictures, talked, had ice cream, talked some more, walked on the beach and took some more photos.

then we went into USS to have cheese fries at mel's dine-in.

it was fun, as with most outings with jiayue ^^

cute guy with rabbit on a leash, woman with a world map towel wrapped around her, stepping into "traps" in the sand and talking about how our "回头率" is 100%. hahahaha :D

my favourite part of the day would be when we were sitting outside the ice cream shop, talking and eating the ice cream and cake in the hot weather, facing the sea and there would be a slight sea breeze blowing at us from time to time. such a blissful feeling ^^
the nice card that jiayue made!
 whooo and look what i found when i came home :D

plus plus plus, i won the game. so today was a really great day. hahaha.

12:27 AM
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