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Just wanted to talk about this season's japanese dramas that i'm currently watching now cause they're so good~~~

firstly,
Nigeru wa Haji da ga Yaku ni Tatsu


the live action of manga with the same name about (once again) contract marriage but its really light hearted and funny plus the female lead is. so. pretty~~

next, jimi ni sugoi kouetsu girl kouno etsuko

SUDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA omgggg!!!
need I say more hahaha. but the main lead, Ishihara Satomi from '5 to 9' (a.k.a the monk live action drama) is playing a super straightforward and just overall very lovable character and plus plus plus all her outfits are ON POINT. Idk who her coordi is but I need all dem outfits~ Overall I just really really like this character. the drama is also very interesting despite the boring poster and synopsis haha.

then, Rental kyuseishyu
 

started out watching this to pass time, not expecting much but i kinda like how funny it is but still not losing the standard heartwarming quality of japanese dramas. And somehow i always end up crying when the girl starts rapping hahaha.

Lastly, IQ 246

Pretty big shot cast here as the side characters are all leads in other dramas. For 'mystery' type drama, I've been watching this and 'The sniffer' but I gave up on the sniffer after a while cause the way they solved the cases doesn't seem to be that interesting whereas it was interesting to watch how this man with IQ 246 solves the cases with, well, his IQ. haha. and damn it the suspense of the who the main mastermind behind all the crimes is is killing me (GEDDIT?) hahaha.

so anyway, i've also started watching that korean drama... legend of the blue sea but... idk man the whole show feels like a freaking advertisement hahaha is it just korean dramas??
then again it has only been 2 eps.
and i'm gonna start on the other one, weightlifting fairy!!
finally lee sungkyung gets to be the lead and acts as something else other than the irritating rich girl so i'm very excited plus omg nam joohyuk!! and omg another model that i've been following on insta is also on the show. so much goodlooking-ness pls don't let me down hahaha.

kay thats it for drama ranting.

Friday, November 25

Time really freaking flies. It has already been a year since popo's passing and while going to baibai this morning so many thoughts and feelings went through my mind and I guess I really want to pen down these thoughts before they fade away like they never existed.

The thing about missing somebody is that it hits you when you least expect it and when you feel most vulnerable. There you are, doing life as usual, thinking okay, I'm a strong person and I'm doing okay and then your mind starts to wander during a long bus ride home from school one day. While thinking about what to eat for dinner you recalled the taste of a familiar dish which you're probably never gonna eat again. Then it hits you.
Then they all hit you. Random memories start to play in your head and before you know it you're trying to discreetly wipe away the tears rolling down your face without startling the person sitting beside you.

But the thing is, you don't mind this happening because your memory is the only place they come alive again and you don't wanna forget. You don't ever want to forget so you replay those memories again and again so they get imprinted in your mind.

Much as the logical side of me knows that both of them had led tough lives and even their last few years had not been easy on them so they are (hopefully) in a better place now, I still feel that it is super unfair that they have to leave so early. Out of all the people (not that I'm trying to curse anyone), the two person that I loved the most had to go first. The only 2 people that I can freely 撒娇 to.

I wonder if my dealing mechanism with loss has led to my twisted personality today. haha it probably did.

Damn it I cried so much typing all these I bet my eyes are gonna be damn sore and swollen tomorrow when I go to work. Really really could do with a big hug today or at least some cuddle time with my soft toys and blanket but I had to go to school zzz. And it had to be a rainy day today. I hate rainy days. They always make me gloomy and moody so it didn't help. Days like these really...

Much as I wanna look on the bright side and think of all the good things that happened, the moody feeling just clings onto you like gum stuck in your hair. You know its bad and you should remove it but it feels like too much effort. everything feels like too much effort. ya recently everything feels like too much effort. sigh.

But after being alive for 23 years, I know that periods like these would pass and without the lows there would be no highs but for now I am really craving for a break from life.

mama and popo I miss you all so much ): Tuesday, November 8