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hello every birdies!
today sure is a weird day. i seem to be in a good mood for the whole day. hahaha.
this week was quite slack. if only every week is like this. i'll have plenty of time to study. or read. (i finished my book! really like the part when the guy asked her how she knew what was going to happen and she was like "well, when i said i was praying for you, what did you think i was praying for?" damn sweet. hahahaha.) chapel was quite interesting today. for the once time since i entered SA, i sang during chapel! hahaha. partly because i was in the front row and the teacher kind of kept making eye contact with me.
had a very interesting conversation with clara and valerie today about religions. i guess the book and today's chapel made me think about some stuff that i've been thinking ever since i had entered this school. anyway, the conversation was quite interesting and its something different from the usual stuff that we talk about.
there were very little people around for pe today cause i think practically half the class ponned but it was fun cause the people who were around are those that i usually hang out with (minus julia). hahaha. mr khoo told us a "little story" about how this girl who was super stressed out shouted "WTF WHY MUST WE DO THIS, I DON'T WANT TO JUMP" at him when he asked her to practice standing broad jump.
MK: ... then she shouted "WHAT THE F, you all know what "f" stands for right, WHY MUST WE DO THIS....
hahahaha he's damn funny.

omg i don't dare to tell my parents about the U i got for econs D:!!!
seriously, i don't think i've ever done so badly for maths before. i just broke my own record. the record before this was 39/100 for Amaths MYE during sec 4 (yes, i was still scoring F9 for my amaths 2 exams before O levels!). omg. i am one dead piece of meat. dead meat.
but records are meant to be broken right? HAHAHA OKAY I WAS JUST TRYING TO CONSOLE MYSELF.

and no, lao kan, that is still 2 lines!
take a look at it yourself ----> http://lame-yellow-tofu.blogspot.com/
hahahaha.

reading -'s post on part blog makes me realise how meaningless and redundant my blogposts are. hahaha. (GET BETTER SOON "rihanna" hahahahahaha.)
okay whatever.
but i really agree with what she said,
"I know it may seem that I've lots of friends, very sociable, friendly wtv but if I've been taking a step back recently and just really count with my own fingers, who my real friends are. What makes me nothing more than a friend collector?"
"We're all still on the roads of discovering ourselves. I believe I'm one of the unfortunate ones who's having a hard time doing that hahaha. But one day, when all of us are mature enough to sit around with each other and talk about past things, we can still look back to our 'old days' and reminiscence fondly. Meanwhile, I just want to give everyone strength to face life with adversity and be prepared for all the worldly challenges ahead :) "
my favourite 2 parts.

the second one reminds me of what tbs said the other time, that it is true JC is a time that you'll find yourself and thus your JC friends are those that will be with you for the rest of your life, not your primary school friends, secondary school friends nor your army buddies etc.
hmmmm. this made me think quite a lot. hmmmm.

coupled with what i read on another friend's blog...
"when we were in primary school, we found friends – as playmates.
in secondary school, we found friends – we matured and discovered life together.
in junior college, we found friends – we mugged our hearts out and made the most out of our 2 years.
in university, what kinds will we find?
will there ever be a friend, who can be a perfect substitute for all others?
as we matured, we didn’t have a need for playmates.
as we mugged, we couldn’t find time for life.
how many of these friends will gradually drift apart?
how many will be there with you until you’re old and wrinkled?
when will we ever find that perfect friend, who will never neglect, never forget and will always forgive?
is it even possible".
hmmm.

we came into this world alone and we're going to leave this world alone too.
we may meet different people at different stages of our lives but would there be anyone that you met that both of you would want to continue to stay and continue to play a significant part of each other's life, even if you have gone past that stage of life where you first met?
just like what the guy said this morning during chapel, your friends may say that they would die for you and stuff, but would they actually do it?
even though i'd do many things for my friends, i don't think i'd die for them.

all these thoughts are kind of linked to the future.
should we worry so much about the future?
even if there may not even be a "future" to speak of.
so much uncertainties.

"It’s like there’s this person that you want to be for other people… To make them happy and make them proud of you. And then there’s yourself. Sometimes it’s really hard to tell where one ends and the other begins."
Dawson’s Creek

Thursday, March 31

haha, last time when i was much younger and still lived at siglap road, i'd go to the swimming pool alone (cause there was nothing to do at home and i have no siblings) and keep jumping into the water or hitting the water so that i can watch all these tiny bubbles form, swarm around my arm, then slowly disappear.

"#Zodiac It is rare that a #Taurus would be rigid, and argumentative.Their negativity is expressed in dullness, stubbornness and resistance."

today was super slack. had maths from 8 to 9 am, where we got back our BT paper and that was it. hahahaha.
yay i borrowed "A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks today!
so long since i'd last read a book. exciting :D!

I realised that, as SYF draws nearer, it also means that the days left with these CO people are drawing to an end ):
this costume thing made me realise how bad i am as an in charge.
urghhh we're going to end up with sucky costumes DDDD:

to my OOTW friend, hmm probably not this week...
uhhh sometime next week? (: Wednesday, March 30

to yee shan if you're reading this:
HAHA kcy's posts have shrunk! from 3 lines to 2 lines! HAHAHAHAHA. Tuesday, March 29

watching the soccer matches today reminds me of this time last year, when i was crazy over -.
"ooh"-ing and "aah"-ing at every match that i can go for.
being so happy at the ultra mini "conversation" i had with -.
hahahaha. those were the times man.
but today's match made me think "what was wrong with me last time?!" hahahaha.
it wasn't a very exciting match between SA and NY but sitting there "OOH"-ing, "AAH"-ing, commenting and laughing with valerie was fun :D
i mean tbs, jp and jieying were there too but they weren't really interested -.-
and we won in the end. 2-0
theres another match tomorrow! but i think it clashes with co ))):
maybe i'll sneak out for a while. heehee :D

omg cannot be so slack/boy-crazy anymore!
BT2 and SYF are coming DD:
all this anticipation is so tiring. i wish they'd just shove all the Us in my face already so that i can get utterly disappointed with myself and that shall be my driving force.
urghhh.

maths, econs and NAPFA are the banes of my JC life D:
(can you believe i actually checked dictionary.com before blogging this to check for the correct usage of this phrase? hahahaha.)

hope life is going well for everyone!
If not, just remember to
yep. peace. V.

MEOWWW (:
I feel like reading a book. I haven't read one in ages.
Haven't gotten back any papers so far. hmmmmmm.
and band concert tickets are sold out before i get to buy them ):
oh well.

Letters to Juliet was nice :D
If you're looking for a movie to watch which is suuuuuuper romantic, i'd highly recommend this. i think its a bit unrealistic at the end though. hahaha but i guess we're all want to see a happy ending. Monday, March 28

i slept like a pig today!
woke up at 8.30 (yes every birdie! chenting can wake up before 12 on a sunday!)
i slept on the way there cause there was a jam.
knocked my head twice while getting on my dad's pick-up today. maybe i'd really grown taller.
we had to walk from one end all the way to the other end in the hot sun cause my dad couldn't turn in like other drivers and had to park outside the place.
it was a really hot day today.
then we went to another place, slept on the way there too. not sure if there was a jam or not cause i was sleeping.
then we went to have chicken rice with my father side family for lunch at mayling street. slept on the way there too.
i miss them so much :D
they're really funny and cute. hahahaha.
i missed the times when i'm free enough to go to my grandma's house every weekend, back when my cousin and her parents were still staying there and there'd be like alot of people in the house. hahaha.
then we went back home. i was reading a book on the floor, in front of the fan while waiting for my turn to shower but i fell asleep instead. i remember waking up at 4 plus and telling myself to go shower but i kind of rolled to the side and fell asleep again until its like 5.20 and my mum came in to wake me up. but i kind of ignored her and went back to sleep and at 5.30 she got popo to come in to scream at me to get up.
okay the end. just showing how i slept like a pig today.

had quite a weird convo with mama today.
she was telling me what she wants us to do after she died.
hmmmm.
but i guess its necessary to think about this kind of stuff early cause we don't know whats going to happen next right?

saw this beautiful rainbow while eating dinner today.
shall upload the photos another time, but the photos just don't do the rainbow justice :/

tomorrow is a fresh new start!
are you all ready? :D
the - shirt was really big and comfy. it might become my new favourite shirt. (: Sunday, March 27

yes, everybirdie, this is to all the weirdos out there like myself :D

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY CAUSE I GOT MY 12 HOURS OF SLEEP. mmmmm (:
went to eat at xinwang at marina square with michelle, tbs and valerie today then went to collect my passport while they go to school. at first i thought i can just go there, collect and go. but no, my mum didn't book an appointment so we ended up waiting like 2 hours?
but its cool cause i got to observe this 2 families in front of me. hahahaha.
and there was this awkward moment when...
i realised that all the kiddos around me are playing with iphones like pros while i was stoning.
omg. hahahahaha.
and there was this zuper cute girl behind me with her grandparents who have cute chubby cheeks and kept poking me. omg damn cute. hahahaha. i knew i was popular with kids :D hahahaha.
then by the time i collected my passport it was like 5.55 already but i still went back to school for co, which ends at 7. and i was regretting like crazy when i reached PP cause i realised how stupid it was. by the time i reach school, it was like 6.15, only 45 more minutes to the end of co -.-

okay anyway today is the last day of freedom before i start studying for BT2!
yes pals, if you've screwed up as badly as i did, you'll start early too.

oh i forgot to mention some things in yesterday's post.
i thought it was quite cool that michelle was dressed up nicely in a dress, tights and pumps and she wasn't complaining at all when we were walking in the botanical gardens in the sun, on the grass etc. just walking cool-ly with her pink umbrella. hahaha.
and my spilt ice lemon tea kind of flowed over the table and ended on tbs. but still, the sad thing was that i only drank a sip of it. and i was so thirsty after eating the biscuit.

OMG I JUST HAVE TO SHARE THIS.

CN BLUE ♥ ! Saturday, March 26

i have totally completely utterly screwed up my BT 1.
but, whatever.
i learnt a few things though:
-i love the silence of the early morning (between 3am to 6 am)
-it is possible to survive on less than 6 hours of sleep per day for about 1 week. (hello panda eyes and eye luggages!)
-trying to cram 1 year and 3 months worth of econs into your brain 9 hours before the paper will NOT work.
-showering in the early morning is freaking cold but it'll wake you up.
-getting home early (5 plus) is actually not bad. i have time to chill for a while, do some crunches before dinner before continuing with my usual routine. (my tummy ))): )
-i like drinking instant white coffee with a teaspoon of milo powder. gives me the illusion that i'll be more awake.

okay anyways, during the last 15 minutes of econs paper, i've completely given up on the question after staring at it for super long and could up come up with a single idea of how to link anything to it, i just let my mind wander.
and i've decided. i'm going to work my ass off for BT 2 and if by then i don't get >55 rankpoints, i think i'll retake my J2 year. and this time, i'll get tuition.
but i really don't want to do that though. the J1 batch seems really scary.
WILL START STUDYING FOR BT 2 FROM THIS SAT ONWARDS!

today was super tiring but kind of fun :D
after geog i stayed to wait for tbs to finish and i was pretending to look busy while this group of J1s surrounded me cause they needed to get stuff from their lockers. then this guy dropped a box of chess and all the chess pieces were scattered around so i helped to pick up those that were near me. and he didn't bothered to say thanks. WOW, YOU'RE WELCOME.
then ninja came and kept me company until tbs finish his history paper and we were playing "soccer" with this CJ collar pin on the table. hahahaha.
after tbs came, we went to look for a teacher but she wasn't around and on the way to the gate, we walked past this girl whom i lent my hairband to in the morning so that she wouldn't get scolded by - during her lit paper. i didn't know her but since she asked, i just lent it to her. so i asked her if she was the one who borrowed my hairband and she was like ya and proceeded to take it out of her bag. and she didn't say thanks too. WOW, YOU'RE WELCOME. and I said thanks when she passed it to me. wow i totally owe you man, thanks for borrowing the hairband from me -.-
okay, the rest of the day kind of went past in a blur cause i was really tired.
we first went to bugis where we met andong and valerie. walked around the whole of bugis street in about 1/2 an hour? record time. couldn't find the things that we wanted so we went to far east. ate a bit, michelle came and we walked around. we found this one that was super ex but whatever we were super tired already so we got tbs to try it and we took a photo of it and went off. spent super long trying to think of where to go next, so we walked around aimlessly (yes it felt good to not have to chiong home to study) and ended up at ion where we spent super long to find the stupid starbucks. we sat for a while, then valerie had to go for her bbq so we walked her to the mrt then went to take bus to botanical gardens to watch sco performance.
got there at like 4 plus and the concert starts at 6 so we walked around until like 5.30. the evening weather was great :D warm sun, slight breeze here and there, fresh air (kind of). at 5.30 we went to the amphitheatre where they'll be performing. but there was nobody there so we checked the sco website and guess what? tbs got it wrong and the concert was supposed to be on 24 APRIL and not 24 MARCH. hahahahahahaha omg it was super funny. so we just sat there and chill and talked about random stuff but it was quite cool :)
then we wanted to eat dinner but didn't know where to go and we decided to just take the next bus that comes along and go wherever it takes us and ended up at plaza sing. wanted to eat astons but the queue was super long so we went to eat popeye's instead. (the mashed potato isn't that nice anymore!! D:) (oh and they have new york pizza there! YAYY :D) i accidentally toppled my cup of iced lemon tea and the worst thing was i only drank a sip of it ): SIAN. went back to PS cause michelle wanted to buy bread and i saw eychelle. okay then we went home.

overall, it was a very exhausting day.
so i am exhausted and am going to sleep now.
whoosh no school tomorrow yayyyyy :D~

we may only have tonight,
but till the morning sun you're mine, all mine.
play the music low and swing to the rhythm of love ♥

peace out pals (: Thursday, March 24

I am, such a mean person.
and i'm suddenly scared for econs D: Wednesday, March 23

wow, i can't even begin to describe how screwed i am for BTs.
but it brings a strange kind of freedom.
the "well since i've already screwed up 4 papers, i might as well just screw them all!"
you know the feeling?

okay everybody, guess what?
CN BLUE'S ALBUM IS OUT YAY YAY YAY:D
okayyyy... the mv for "intuition" isn't very special plus its too similar to their previous songs.
disappointed. BUT jonghyun and minhyuk looks good :D
and why are the security guards so slow! are they potatoes or what?

my mum just asked me if i need tuition.
hmmmm.
i need to tell her how screwed my BTs are, give her some mental preparation before the result slip gets mailed to my house.
i really hate how the school mails our result slips to our house. its a very stupid idea.

Things to do after BT 1:
-start studying for BT 2 (HAHA)
-SETTLE THE SYF CONSTUME (!!)
-listen to the rest of "First Step"
-CHECK OUT STAR DANCE BATTLE 2011
-sleeeeeeeeeeeep.


yosoeb is super cute here :D
WHYYYY is IU so talented? Tuesday, March 22

SO COOL.
i just opened my pictures folder and rolled my cursor over the pictures with my eyes closed and clicked randomly and this is the picture chosen. how apt. hahaha.

If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied,
illuminate the "NO"s on their vacancy signs.
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks,
then I will follow you into the dark.
- I will follow you into the dark/Death Cab For Cutie
my favourite lines of this song. (:

I showered my guinea pig today.
Its smelling so nice and looking fluffy and clean now. cute :D

okayyy, its 21st of march already but theres no news of CNBlue's new album!
anyway, i looked through the tracklist and most of the songs are like just korean versions of their jap songs. I feel... kind of cheated. :/

omg its monday in 2 hours time.
okay i'll stop thinking about BTs cause i'm going to screw it up anyways.
(HAHA SO MUCH FOR 60 RANKPOINTS.)

the sport seasons are starting, pals :B Sunday, March 20

"Today while walking our dogs my Dad and I saw a group of teenage guys. All of them had their pants sagging and looked very trashy. My Dad, being the neat person he is, starting screaming at the top of his lungs,"Say no to crack, say no to crack!" Most of them thought he was talking about drugs. He corrected them saying,"If you'd stop showing off your buttcracks, people might not think you're druggies." I love my Dad. MLIA. "

"Today, while reading MLIA in my bedroom, I heard the voice that Harry Potter hears in the Chamber of Secrets. I thought Tom Riddle was attacking until I realized my brother was watching Harry Potter in the living room. MLIA "

"Today, I was telling my friend how the D.C. in Washington D.C. stood for District of Colombia. He thought it stood for Da Capital. That's right, Washington Da Capital. MLIA "

"Today, I realized that, in my head, I refer to myself as "we"... We're kinda worried about this. "

If I could start over, i would...
not have joined this cca and gotten so close with this group of people.
so that i would not assume that this bond of ours would never be broken.
and i wouldn't be so sad when the truth of how big the distances between us finally hit me. like someone took a cold slimy fish and slapped it across my face.
the distance is so so great that we no longer know when each other are joking. wow.
but really, today made me realise that...
those people whom i had always thought understood me best and whom, at the back of mind, i had thought would always be there, as a pillar, for me to find me again, are not the same anymore. the relationship between us are not the same anymore. we don't mean that much to each other anymore. we are no longer each other's priority. we can no longer say "part more important or ______ more important?" and the person being questioned would automatically feel guilty. we're just... secondary school friends. maybe something more... ex-cca-mates.
these revelations just puts me in a melancholy mood for the whole day.
i can't remember the last time i've been so sad for so long.
oh. i think it was the day when i "ran away from home" for one day.
words mean nothing now, pals, don't try.
the girl sitting beside me in the library was probably quite freaked out when i kept sniffling.

anyways. if i'm going to hurt people with my words and actions, i'm just going to keep my comments to myself from now on. and not make any eye contact with people. blind and mute. the next helen keller.
was it fate that i was from keller house
ignore that, i was just being bitter and stupid.

i just realised that, its sunday morning.
as in, its sunday morning.
its the last day of our march "holidays" omg.
my BTs gg already. seriously.
need to start to study for those subjects that i don't like,
cannot just focus on geog only -.-

andddddd... right after BTs would be the problem of SYF costume omg.
gg again. hai.

and i realised that i haven't had my alone day yet DDD:
and its already sunday.
greattttttt.
what have i been doing with my holidays?

on a much lighter note, it was kind of fun in the morning (:

and i've removed the tagboard and the counter thing to try to psycho myself that nobody reads my blog so that it'll be easier to blog.
yes, i live in denial whatever whatever.
and maybe the bright colours of this blogskin would make everything better.
plus i made it :D

i don't really like realFAKE_SAJC.
i believe realFAKE_SAJC and fake_SAJC are different people, the former being a guy.
both are from team sajc.
hmmm, but the latter sounded more intellectual. like he/she really wanted the school to change to benefit the students. like all those tweets about the taps and the lack of shelter from the side gate to the bus-stop. and the former's tweets are getting kind of...

okay whatever. nothing to do with me.
piew piew (toy gun sound) bye pals~ Saturday, March 19

hehe koped this from the cnbluestorm website.
yay cnblue's new album is coming out in 3 days' time! HOW EXCITING IS THIS!!!
oh wait... 3 days...
OHH ITS SUNDAY! whoooo :DD

okay anyways,
i think i kind of did quite a lot today.
woke up, ate a slice of oreo cheesecake while watching ella enchanted then went to wash my pumas.
i found out that there are holes inside my shoes! need to find news shoes asap before the holes get to the surface. or maybe i can just sew pieces of cloth over it. maybe it'll be quite cool. hahahaha and i can save on the money too.
then i showered, changed and ate my lunch while i continued watching ella enchanted and before i knew it, it was 2 already!
hahahahaha and i was supposed to meet tbs at bras basah(sp?) at 2. omg it was totally my fault.
then on the way there i was feeling more and more insecure cause i thought i look quite ah lian but it was too late to change.
then i met tbs at dhoby and we boarded the train, where we met adam and boke ting and i realised that... we can actually wear shorts and t-shirts D: wts, then both of us starting grumbling and grumbling that we were over-dressed and the grumbling and self-conscious got even worse when we saw plenty of people wearing their school uniforms.
okay whatever.
the seminar was not bad i guess. the professor was really cute. as in the old people kind of cute.
*fumbling around with the mouse* "where is google! i'm lost without google!" then when he found the search box, he started typing with one finger. damn cute. hahahahahaha.

after the seminar, met up with valerie, michelle and jp at PS for dinner.
as in i was drinking my disgusting gongcha while they enjoyed pastamania cause i have dinner at home.
went to madewithlove to buy paper before going home. pretty stuff are really expensive ):
ate dinner while watching the rest of ella enchanted then went to watch the news with my grandma. wow, so long since i'd last had a proper conversation with her.
quality family time (:

i'm spending so little time at home nowadays!
i barely talk to my family anymore D:
and when was the last time i contacted the relatives from my father's side? omg i can't even remember.
shall call them tomorrow. must must must.

omg my blog post is so boring sorry pals.

GOING TO YIN CHIH KAN'S HOUSE TOMORROW OMG YAYYYYYY :DDDD
the stupid yin chih kan who banged her head on a door -.-

anyways, some photos from the train rides home these few days.
Thursday, March 17

IT.
has been so long since i last blogged!
anywayss.
co camp this time wasn't as bad as i'd expected but it was so much less fun than the previous one.
the only highlight was skipping dinner and playing basketball(i'm not going to play basketball with them again. i'm so lousy and short and barely get the chance to get the ball D: ) , then ultimate frisbee(which was suuuuuper tiring) till the sky turned too dark for us to see the frisbee, then dinner then lying on the field in a circle with calvin, HL, lead, anthon, JP, weiting and BT.
while eating dinner, i was super slow(as usual) so some of them left to play captain's ball while there was only me, anthon, calvin and hl left. then the 3 of them started to sing chinese songs. it was super funny and entertaining. hahahaha. "calvin you're so gay! what the freak." HAHAHAHA.
then we laid on the field to star-gaze for a while, then said some ghost stories and started to tell lame jokes. hahahaha. after running, nicholas, sylvester and tbs joined us too. yeppp.
it was quite sad that valerie missed most of the camp cause she was sick. :/
it was pretty weird without the constant "HAHAHAHAHA" in the background.
hahahaha.

then it was monday, i overslept, so i missed cse lesson and by the time i reached school, i only managed to catch the last 10 minutes of maths. then went out to eat lunch with tbs and valerie then went back to school to study until like 6 plus then we went to eat dinner at city square mall at this italian place and the food is (Y) and affordable :D yum yum yum :D
went home, showered, wanted to continue my maths but ended up talking online until 4 D:

thought i could wake up at 7 to go to school for maths at 8. butttttt. i only woke up at 10.45 omg. i totally didn't hear my alarm clock at all.
rushed to school, missed maths tutorial and econs lect. met tbs at pp mrt station and we walked at his strolling speed which is my speed walking x2.
seriously, my calves were aching by the time we reached side gate. WHERE, we found out that we have to go to the other gates cause this stupid gate is spoiled.
so we walked to the main gate, where on the way, i stepped into a puddle of muddy water. whoohoo.
was nearly late for geog lect. then went for maths. then went to eat lunch with weiting and tbs at another coffee shop at pp area. then we went back to school to study.
BUTTT today was super unproductive. i only did like 2 maths questions DD:
cause i was too busy talking. hai. but its cool, i realised the both of us are pretty alike.
then when the library closed, i went to coronation to meet with 1/3 of delta/09 to have dinner.
the food was awesome :B
it was pretty awkward at first, i don't know, having not seen each other for quite long and having to get used to each other's changes all over again.
(i guess in life, we have to be adaptable in order to survive.) hahahaha.
then went to eat sogurt. it was yummy butttttt, too expensive for frozen yoghurt. and why is there a wall with all the "sogirls" photos? trying to attract people using sex appeal? seriously.
and jovi came, we took a few photos (whats a part outing without any retarded photos rights?) and i had to leave ):

and so. i'm here again. wasting my time.
gonna BTs D:

i cried while watching the news just now.
seriously, i don't know what i'd do if i'm the one in charge of japan now.
watching my country get destroyed, thousands of people killed, air getting polluted, those who are alive trying their best to flee from the country and pressure from everywhere.
wow and here i am, sitting comfortably in my house, blogging. about my insignificant life.
i really wish i could do something useful to help them. like fly there now. instead of continue studying for my supposed future which may not even come. Tuesday, March 15

WHAT IF I CAN'T GET INTO ANY COURSE?
D: Sunday, March 6

-.-
Feel so tired.
not the "urgh i'm so tired i need to sleep RIGHT NOW" kind of tired but more of the "i'm so sick of doing the same things and seeing the same people. I NEED CHANGE." kind of tired.

(wts i just finished typing this whole post and its gone so i have to type it again. >:( )

I need... something to look forward to.
Anyone wants to do something fun with me after my BTs?
Like...
siwmming (okay fine maybe not swimming. i can't really swim and i need a new swimming costume. HAHA OMG KELLY REMEMBER WHAT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BUY TOGETHER AFTER Os?!),
picnic at the botanical gardens,
a day of sand, sun and fun at sentosa, (which, i guess would need to involve swimming costume too D:)
flea-marketing,
cycling,
MJ (!!!) (so long since i've last been to lyn's house to laze around/to play mj!) (okay so long since i've last seen lyn in fact.).

I need... aims.
for the short term (BT 1), maybe i should try to get my name on the honour roll.
but 60 rankpoints is kind of ...
i don't really like to set this kind of unrealistic aims cause i'll be really sad if i don't get in then what if i cry ): so pathetic.
hmmm.

but for the longer term, i hope to know what course i want to get into after the NUS FASS talk and i'll work towards that.

maybe i should go on a short hiatus.
what do you say?

Its time to work hard, pigs!
All the best for whatever tests/exams coming your way (:

HOW
to comfort people?

I think I kind of suck at it. Friday, March 4

AND I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT...
YIN CHIH KAN WAS THE 14TH OUT OF 20 FASTEST GIRL RUNNERS!




(my mp3 is spoiled again ): ) Wednesday, March 2

I wore pe-shirt and blue fbts with my blue pumas for the cross-country,
then went to have co lunch at parkway parade where i had ban mian.
had a lot of fun having a cool conversation with kbb and the rest of the "clique".
then went back to school where i showered and changed into arts faculty shirt.
had co from 2 to 6.
co practice was really productive today.
finally we got to play the whole of both songs!
hope is(MIGHT BE) in the air for our SYF!
whoohoo :D
2 MORE DAYS TO THE WEEKENDS.
8 days to BT. omg omg omg. i need to start studying. MUST.

I shall do this by the end of this week. hahaha. Tuesday, March 1