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I hope that...
next time when i'm out of school already, i'd not become those people that only knows how to da ban, those that look good on the outside but acts in an inconsiderate way in public places. like don't give up her seat to those who need it more, cutting people's queue etc. i hate aunties. i hope i don't turn out like one. not in the way i look, but the way i act. please please please noooo. Tuesday, May 31

today was a very interesting day :D
-walked to school and was about to reach the side gate when i realised that the side gate was cluttered with a group of people and then the people started to walk towards the main gate so i just followed them, thinking that maybe the gate is spoiled or the security guard refuses to let us in cause we're "late" (BUT ITS THE HOLIDAYS!) oh well. and i felt like a total idiot when i was climbing up the stairs later and i see people streaming in by the side gate -.-
-the weird serious atmosphere in class after math tutorial when everyone continued to stay in class and the class was quiet even though usually we'd have packed and go to the cafe right after lessons. hahahaha.
-going out of school to eat mac bf even though i have a doughnut in my bag. was kinda full so saved half of my sausage mcmuffin with egg for later.
-fell asleep in cse lecture
-paid attention in econs lecture (shocking!)
-after that i'd wanted to study in school then go for geog lect then study more but... jy came!
-she begged julia to let me not go for geog lect and go eat lunch with her. it was super entertaining :D
-so i went to eat lunch with jy at this cool place in between outram and chinatown. THANK YOU JY FOR THE TREAT!
(AND FOR THE COUPLE PENCIL :DDDD)
-so i went back to school cause we needed to take the photo for the CO poster and i walked by the JB bridge this time. walking in front of me was this guy who was wearing yellow slippers and yellow earphones who doesn't look like he's from our school. so at the end of the JB bridge, he pushed the gate and it was locked. so i pressed the bell thing. meanwhile...
him: "uh, if i'm not from this school which gate should i go to?"
me: "mm, you're supposed to go to the main gate which is quite far. uh you just go in with me lah."
him: "okay."
so after pressing the stupid button several times and nobody answered us nor open the gate for us, i saw another girl going to come out of school. and she pressed the bell on the other side and it wouldn't open too. so i kept pressing and pressing BUT THE STUPID GATE STILL WON'T OPEN. great. so i said to the guy: "uh you want to go to the other gate?"
so both of us, even though we're total strangers, walked together to the side gate from JB bridge while making small talk. hahahaha so i sort of made a new friend, Alvin (if i didn't hear wrongly) hahahaha. yepp, so we successfully went in through the side gate and i told him to hide somewhere safe cause he was wearing slippers before going up to the co room.
-then we came down to take the photos. while waiting for the others to take pictures, me and tbs were doing stupid stuff like competing to see who can balance on the yellow thing the longest and who can spin 8 rounds on the spot and still walk in the straightest line. hahahaha.
-okay then went to co room to enjoy the aircon for a while then went down to do a bit of maths. REALLY A BIT. omg i'm super dead for the re-test!
-okay then went down to ion swensons with only $1.10 in my wallet. HAHA.
-dinner was quite entertaining, ms ang's baby super cute and chubby :DD!!
-reached home a bit late and my mother nagged.

haha okay some pictures!I think... I'm ready to be a mum.
HAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING MY PALS!

and here are some photos from the sentosa outing the other day :D
for the rest of the photos please go to jy's blog!
I've always thought sunsets are more beautiful than sunrises (:OUR YUMMY FOOD!! the thought of it is making hungryyyyy :D

and lastly, this looks interesting!

Message me a number
1 - A secret of mine
2 - An interest of mine
3 - A random fact
4 - A bad habit
5 - A confession
6 - What I like about you
7 - A random memory
8 - A regret
9 - If we were locked up in a room, we would…
10 - 3 things I like about myself
11 - 3 things I dislike about myself
12 - 5 of my favourite things
13 - What I think about your blog
14 - A fact about my personality
15 - A fact about my appearance

"You poked me with a pen to ask for a pen."
-letterstocrushes.com

NITES PIGGIES!! Monday, May 30

today i:
-woke up at 10 plus
-went down to the market and had dimsum for brunch with my parents
-came back up and was made to tidy up the storeroom
-spent >6 hours packing the storeroom then filing my notes
-while packing... I FOUND MY PSP!
-and since its the holidays, i feel that i kind of have the right to play it
-but i couldn't find my psp charger and the psp can't be switched on. i think after not touching it for so long, it kinda ran out of battery.
-but the good news is... i found someone who can lend me the charger so i can play my psp soon!

and you've just wasted about 30 seconds of your life reading that. heehee. (:
the 6 plus hours i spent filing my notes made me feel like i was working in the factory.
sort, hole-punch, file. sort, hole-punch, file.
its more tiring than i thought but oh well it was quite satisfying. hahaha.

shit, i'm already in the holiday mood. kept thinking there isn't school tomorrow. :/

actually i kinda like studying for exams.
reading the notes, then making my own notes with my colourful pens and markers, then reading my own notes again.
but being an arts student, i have FREAKING LOTS OF READINGS.
and its impossible to make notes for all of them. hai.
but i'll try to find some way to make studying fun again.

oh and today....
I THREW AWAY MY NO.3 BOOTS AND MY IFC MUTUALS.
)))))':
I guess, its just time to move on. Sunday, May 29

awesome day on the beach with jiayue and sop (:
ate a lot, talked a lot, listened a lot.
thought a lot too.

good job with the homemade food pals (Y)
and sorry my mashed potato was so tasteless. hahaha.

shall sum up today with jy's fb status:
海风带回了美丽的回忆，简单的快乐，和依然纯洁的友谊。 吹走疲惫，伤心和烦琐的心事。在阳光下沙滩上欢笑中度过的一天, 真好! Count my blessings.


though its a pity that the sky was clouded.

♥ you pigs (: Friday, May 27

the thing that happened today...
definitely a sign.
I gotta go my own way~
hahahahaha.
(AND YOU STOP SENDING ME MIXED SIGNALSSS!!) Thursday, May 26

sorry to disappoint every birdies but...
the contest is now closed and the winner of the contest is... MABEL!
congratulations to Mabel for being such a pro P.I.
please check your mailbox often for the one million dollars that has already been mailed out to you (:




♥ --- to all my ninja stalkers (:

WOW, i just realised that theres this small link at the corner of letters to crushes webbie and it leads to all the letters, not just the most voted ones. I'm at page 10, but the letters are STILL just submitted today. WOW.

OH YA, AND CONGRATS GEOG PEOPLE, WE SURVIVED TODAY!!

"I apparently knew you years ago... just aquaintances but I don't remember. funny how we met again, an old friend I had lost contact with messaged me, told me he liked me, and brought me around since some of his friends used to be mine. I told him I just wanted to be friends because I wasn't ready for another boyfriend... I lied.
I thought you were hot, but you seemed to cocky and came off as a womanizer so I wasn't interested. a girl friend said you thought I was cute but I didn't believe her.
you're winning me over... letting me wear your special hat that no one can touch. standing up for me. letting me drape my legs across you when I wanted to stretch out. telling me your secrets.
I tried not to let myself like you... then we had to share a bed and you kept getting closer so cautiously, trying to see if I'd pull away. when you put your arm around my waist and pulled me close my heart skipped a beat and I thought the butterflies in my stomach might fly out of my mouth. I still was afraid you only wanted sex... until you held me all night while you slept and didn't even once move your hand from my waist to wander to more private areas.
maybe I misjudged you... either way, I messed up and I like you. now I'm scared of getting hurt since I know your secrets and some of them involve feelings for another girl :(
do you even like me or are you just playing with me?"
-ltc.com

"What upsets me the most is that I'm genuinely HAPPY for the two of you"
-ltc.com
PRECISELY.

"older girl,
next monday will be the last time we see eachother.
i was planning to tell you how i feel.
i was planning to bring my guitar and sing my heart out.
you're planning to not go to class.
fuck.
- younger boy"

"Every time I see you, you have a chocolate milk in your hand. I have never wanted to be a dairy product. Till now."
-ltc.com

HAHAHAHA.

okay guess what pals! i just submitted a post there. anyone who can find it gets a million dollars from me~
HAHAHAHAHA.

please submit your suspicions to thetofuheroine@hotmail.com.

oh ya, and today, i spent 70 cents to buy a small meat pau which i fed to the cat that looks like it has a centre parting cause it looked hungry and kept meowing at us.
I LOVE CATS!

"The hardest thing I did last week was help you ask her to prom
...and I took the calculus BC exam, which was not easy."
-letterstocrushes.com
NOOO, poor guy ):

"I always wonder if boys get butterflies too."
-letterstocrushes
SO... do you? hahahaha.

"today i showed him all 89 letters i wrote to him here.
he smiled and asked, 'will you write me more?'"
-letterstocrushes

"Today, I was on DBPB and saw this submission, "Dear Edward Cullen, You stay young forever and sneak into the rooms of young girls? How original. Sincerely, Peter Pan" I couldn't stop laughing for ten minutes and immediately sent it to my Tw*l*ght-obsessed best friend. She hasn't talked to me since (it was worth it)."
-MLIA

"Today while playing hide and go seek with six year olds, i hid in the middle of the floor, and no one found me."
-MLIA

hmmm it seems as though the more i try to not think of something, the more i think of it and the more we talk about it. or is it just that i've became more aware of it? hahahaha.

have been cramming geog for the whole day. sooo tired ): Wednesday, May 25

this came 9 days late but...
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY JONGHYUN! Tuesday, May 24

pffft. okay enough of beating myself up already, I'm really going to completely step out now.
giving up all hopes, gonna create as much distance between you and me as possible.
hope you all are happy (NOT SARCASM).

on a happier note...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABEL~
the only OG mate that I'm still close to, I'm really glad that I
I hope with this coming year, life would be kinder to you and let's work hard towards As and not give up okay!
can't wait for the fondue date. whoooooooo.
♥♥♥

today's soccer match between SA and RJ for the 3rd/4th placing was pretty excitng :D
we won! 1-0!
GOOD JOB SOCCER BOYS (:

it was so sunny while we were watching the match that i think i got tanner. hahahaha.

BTs start in 2 days omg. Monday, May 23

Sunday, May 22

HOW CAN THEY LOOK SO COOL WHILE DOING THE LEG THING?!!
I'LL JUST LOOK LIKE SOME BAI KA IF I TRIED ):
*hands in pockets* "fiction in fiction in fiction~"
when yoseob does that leg thing with one hand in pocket and one hand holding the mike and singing, its FREAKING COOL!
B2ST WHY YOU SO COOL!

some of my favourite parts:
-their leg thing
-when junhyung coughs before rapping in on rainy days
-when junhyung raps "saranghae" (X5) in friction
-last part of friction when all of them are singing different things at the same time. Saturday, May 21

good things come to those who wait indeed (: Thursday, May 19

Concluding, my short journey with SACO.
These memories shall never be forgotten (:


okay shall do super short update of what has happened recently:

friday
went to vivo with andong and jy to buy the juniors' farewell gifts.
IT WAS DAMN FUNNY! hahahaha.
they and all that cheena-ness. hahahaha.

saturday
farewell partyyyyy~
super fun also :D!
hahaha thanks for all the gifts pals! it was like everybody's birthday or something haha.
i especially like the book that guanyue juniors made. very thoughtful!
(and stalker-ish D:) hahahaha.
I'm going to miss you all so much )':
great job J1s! even though there were many problems faced, you all managed to overcome them all and done a really good job with the farewell party. i see great potential in you all and i think next year's concert will be a success (Y) (:

sunday
went for MM at juliet's house (Y)
i'm sorry pal that we're always eating free food from your house! hahahaha.

GOING SHOE-SHOPPING TOMORROW! YESSSSSSSS I'M COMNG, MY STRAWBERRY SHOES!!

omg cannot wait for the chocolate fondue day :D yumyumyumzz, i can practically taste it already. heehee.

you know what sucks?
having maths tutorial first thing on monday morning.
guess whats suck-ier?
having maths tutorial first thing on tuesday morning too.
but its alright cause tuesday is a SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!
and i'm going cycling with my parents for the first time~

omg tomorrow is...
-the last time lao kan is gonna raise the school flag with her monday guy )):
(should i do something stupid? hahaha)
-the first time i'm going to school since valerie shifted to boon lay )):
(WHY MUST MY FRIENDS WHO STAY HERE ALL MOVE TO THE WEST!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)

just a collection line, easy access line, blah blah blah blah, A A A A~ (: Sunday, May 15

wts if only i've search youtube earlier. i just screwed up my fringe AGAIN. FML.

LETS STEP OUT INTO THE LIGHT ALREADYYYYYYY.
I realised that much of the pressure and unhappiness I'm facing are all self-inflicted so I'm gonna change my mindset! Stop being so hard on myself!
yay :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYN! LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU (:


why are the girl groups starting to turn to acting cute?
theres 4 minute with heart to heart and now this. hahaha.
but this changed my mind about secret being irritating though.
I LOVE THEIR CLOTHES (AND SHOES!) .

Can anybody explain what Afterschool-Shampoo MV was about? seriously its so confusing. -.- Wednesday, May 11

Just how, do i put these feelings into words?

When all you had worked for, practiced so hard for, was for nothing?
At least my acting was good and i managed to control my emotions till we were in the lift.
FML seriously.
I swear, 2011 is the worst year ever.
I believe that everything happens for a reason, but can somebody, something, anything, anyone tell me why this happened to me?
maybe it was for a greater purpose, like make everyone learn the lesson to always be prepared, maybe it was to teach me a lesson, to always expect the unexpected.
I feel so foolish, feeling so excited, so nervous and doing all those last minute cramming when in the end this would happen. It feels as though I'm a joke, played by fate's hands, and it is currently laughing happily now, at my expense.
I'm so disappointed with my sheng. never gonna touch that thing ever again.

Results aside, the feeling of disappointment probably came from knowing that we are actually capable of doing better. knowing that "WE CAN DO IT!" but we didn't.
It sucks, really.

I don't dare to face Mr Tan ):
The look on his face before he left SCH is still etched in my mind.
Disappointment that could barely be concealed by that smile he'd put on for us so that we'll feel better.

urghhh. tomorrow is self-declared holiday for me.
I can't go and face the rest of the world so soon.
not to mention that i haven't done any hw. haha.
Nites pals, gonna drown my sorrow in my sleep. Monday, May 9

OMG THE DAY IS HERE MY PALS!!

had suffered from withdrawal symptoms from not playing my instrument today. hahaha.
we should have had some overnight thingy so that we'll be near our instruments till SYF. arrrghhhhhh. or at least a mass napping/slacking time together today.
oh mannn talking about this is making my stomach do some hokey pokey inside my body. hahaha.
can't wait for tomorrowzzzzz~

woke up today at around 12 to my auntie's phonecall to go for lunch and to return her the nokia phone. so... thinking that we're just going to eat at some hawker center as usual, i just wore my sas pe shirt and shorts and sandals and hurriedly went down. but we end up going to...
ding tai fung at resort world sentosa -.-
where i spammed XLBs, and bumped into jiayue at the candy shop afterwards.
hahahaha got to talk to her for awhile in the candy shop before this group of guys came and one of them talked to her. so... i thought he was asking for her number so i quickly walked away, thinking that she would follow. but she didn't! then i wanted to go save her and thats when i realised that she actually knows them -.-
and i kind of pang-sehed her. hahahahahaha.
its okay if you don't understand what i'm talking about.

oh and i'm using my auntie's spare phone now which is so old, there are picture of me and my cousin (judging from the long hair and the style of the specs...) from when i was sec 1. HAHAHA.

urghhh its 11 plus and i was supposed to sleep at 10.30!!

"My boss owns a little ice cream shop called "Nina's".

I told him about the boy I am in love with. He asked me if he treats me well. I said yes and he said good. He also said that for a guy to win a gal's heart, he has to treat her well always, as if she's "the only gal in the world".

...

His wife's name is Nina.

When he married her so many odd years ago, he told her he'd put her name up in lights.

Since then he's had a dress shop named "Nina's" which they had to close, so he immediately opened the icecream shop.
"Nina's".

He's going on 82 years old, but her name is still up in lights. "
-letterstocrushes.com
AWWWWW, so sweet. Sunday, May 8

(my phone's wallpaper now

There's this one piece of hair that always falls in her face.
I think it's beautiful.
-letterstocrushes.com
zuper duper sweet omt.

Tomorrow is the last practice before SYF )':

today the whole gang of them went to have lunch together after we were dismissed early at 12. and. i. can't. go. ):
i have never gone out with them as one big gang beforeeeeee ):

omg i was super duper angsty this week.
especially today.
lack of sleep on top of a hot weather plus having an empty stomach.
oh plus having to tolerate soh bt's bitchiness plus the math test that i most probably flunked despite the hints from tbs.
super sorry to the innocent people whom i may have blown up at.

yes, i will sleep early tonighttttt~ Friday, May 6

today is quite a bad day.
1) I walked into the yellow and black metal thing that supports the fence of the "football court" outside our school while walking to macs cause i was too preoccupied staring at the little kids inside playing ball. I walked into it, and my shin hit it. It was freaking painful. And now theres a red mark on my shin. Its still painful.
2) While playing captain's ball today, a ball flew towards me, bounced off the floor and hit my face. My lower lip hit that milk tooth. It was freaking painful. Still is. I think theres going to be an ulcer there soon and thats bad news considering how near SYF is and it sucks to play my instrument with an ulcer.
3) Mr Boo came today for sectionals. I hate that SBT.
got so pissed off and frustrated that i nearly cried (tears of frustration) cause he keep asking me to play that stupid part over and over and I don't even know what the freaking problem was so I kept making the same mistake. Plus I didn't even know there was a mistake. nobody said anything. URGHHHHH.
worst part was that I kind of threw my temper at some people. sorry pals.


And I don't see why my mum is complaining so much about me coming home late when I'm the one that is so tired after one whole day of school and still have to eat dinner, shower, do hw. -.-

Its been so long since I last shopped.
I need $$!

anywayssss...
Congratulations to SAJC Concert Band and Choir for getting gold for their SYF!!
whoooo~
okayyy this actually kind of adds up to the pressure.
hahahaha. we will get gold too!

No. of days left till we're unofficially out of CO: 5 ): Wednesday, May 4

I was so sad yesterday night when i found out that -'s birthday was long over and I forgot to wish him. It was even too late to say "happy belated birthday". and anyway wishing people happy belated birthday is kind of lame too so... ya. ):

unknowingly, I'd fallen back into the same pattern that i was trying to hard to avoid. sleep late, too tired to stay awake during lectures, tutorials and breaks. so little things done, work is piling up like crazy. lagging super behind on my math seriously. hai.
I keep thinking that after SYF I'll have more time to catch up. but really? would i have the discipline to do so? arrrrghhhh.

lesson learnt today: do not wear specs on days with CO practice.
the thing with specs is that your clear view is only within this small rectangular boxes.

omg spending money like crazzzzyyyyyyyy.
must control!!

yes, and lastly, i hope everyone can take care of themselves at this point of time and not fall sick.
drink more water, pals! (: Tuesday, May 3

CAN I HAVE A POSTER OF CN BLUE THAT WOULD COME ALIVE LIKE THAT TOO? :D

THEY ARE TOO CUTE :D!! Sunday, May 1

meow! I'm back from camp pals~
this camp was not as fun as I'd expected but it was more fun than the previous camp.
thank you to the people who planned it anyway :D!

THANK YOU CY, YS, LYN, JOVI AND SOP FOR COMING DOWN TO WATCH THE PERFORMANCE!!
hahahaha omg so rare to see jovi for more than a few minutes before she have to rush off somewhere hahaha.
anyway i was super happy when i saw them. :D
oh and the CO people said:
"help us tell your friends thanks for helping"
"haha your friends very cute"
HAHAHAHAHA.
okay damn funny.

kind of looking forward to SYF day (: