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whats wrong with people these days what happened to patience what happened to tolerance whats the point of being so angry over such a small thing? sometime i wish i was a guy, not having to study in a girls' school, not having to live in a house full of females full of people with pms getting angry over small things frustrated over nothing sad and depressed with nothing just now i was talking to my other grandma whom i have not talked to in a long time then my auntie said she wanted to use the phone then i ask her to wait so that i can finish talking the last few sentence then she practically scream at me to get off the phone so i hurriedly said good-bye then she was saying what cannot call back later then must i be so loh-so etc etc then i was like i wanted to finish what i'm saying once and for all then she throw the cordless phone right onto the table in front of me can whats wrong with her lah why should i live under people all the time?! just when i thought my life was getting better, fate threw me this kind of problems why cause this house is nearest to my school among all the choices of places to stay why cause theres really close friends living nearby cause we can meet up easily most importantly, this is nearest to school i wouldn't have to reach home uber late if cca happens to let off late i wouldn't have to ake up extra early nor sleep extra late to finish up homework thats why all i need is to pass another two and a half years when i graduate from here when i can move out from this prison where i have to live by other's moods i miss the times where i was still young everyday, come back from school, play with my cousin, watch tv. i miss the times where a few of us went to pua's house and had chocolate fondue, and singed karaoke. i miss the time where we went vivo and had so much fun. no such problems then and from the rate of my problems increasing, by the time i reach adult age, i would most probably be those people where i had to drink and smoke just to not think about my problems. do i really want to become that kind of person? actually, do i have a choice? i think i need to see a counsellor i think i might get depression I WILL NOT TURN TO DRUGS! DRUGS CANT SOLVE PROBLEMS! THEY ONLY INCREASE THEM! DONT TURN TO DRUGS NO MATTER HOW DEPRESSED YOU ARE!!! okay. i think i've done my job of being a transfer agent(: ya, as i was saying, i think i ALREADY have depression. this is not like me i'm not one to be sad over her own fate nonono these are some lyrics that i found really meaningful: 时光一去永不回 往事只能回味. 解脱，是擦干眼泪看以后 找个新方向往前走. i dont know who i am anymore): Wednesday, June 13 |
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